it’s been awhile since i’ve written anything about how i’m feeling but a lot has changed. at least a lot for me.
right after i found out my blood type i went to florida for a family wedding. it was an awesome weekend, but emotional for me on the ra level. my cousin (the bride) and i shared a few airport arrival tears upon her finding out about my diagnosis. as one of the females on my dad’s side with multiple autoimmunes, she understood and felt my sadness. basically, these tears officially initiated me into our private female-only family club.
the weekend got a bit more overwhelming when i noticed what was probably nodule on my back right heel/achilles tendon. it was an overwhelming feeling to look down, see one heel looking red and pretty oddly shaped while at lunch with my family on the beach. i will admit, i freaked out a bit and teared up in front of everyone. i’m not used to seeing my body just “deform” overnight. thinking back, that tendon had been bothering me the days prior — i kept circling out my ankle to loosen stiffness i’d been feeling. the nodule went away after a few days as did the stiffness in the tendon… this is just something i need to learn to expect.